A lot has changed since my last post.
In the fall, I began taking classes at my new university. I’m still not enamored with my present situation but I feel that my dissatisfaction may be related more to the college experience than to a particular institution. Regardless, I am trying to take life a day at a time and get the most out of my education. Although I transferred in the fall as a Spanish and French double-major and a technical theatre minor, I dropped my theatre minor almost immediately and eventually dropped the French double major by the end of the semester and replaced it with a Political Science minor. Now that the spring semester has commenced, I am feeling some languor towards my language studies. At this point, I am just attempting to stay on my feet and find something that lights me up.
Around the same time, I also fulfilled my obligations at my old arts administration job and declined to renew my contract. I had a wonderful time with my company but ultimately decided that it was time for me to move on. Soon thereafter, I began what has turned out to be a fun and exciting career in fashion retail (of all places). Everybody likes to complain about retail/customer service positions but I have found myself fitting in very nicely and I have derived a great deal of personal satisfaction from my position. My job has also led me to the conclusion that I genuinely do enjoy meeting and interacting with people; it is perhaps one of my favorite aspects of my current position. One of my customers told me recently that I was the “stunningly pretty…er, handsome” and that has sent me on an unnecessary ego trip. Do I want to be selling clothes for the rest of my life? No. But I certainly am having a great time doing it for now. I haven’t anathematized theatre entirely, either; I am still doing occasional freelance work and have discovered that I prefer doing theatre as a hobby to doing it as a vocation.
My personal life continues to be, as always, relatively low-key. I am keeping my inner circle tight but we are having a blast.
Do I have all of the answers right now? Absolutely not. It was tough going from a sense of rigid self-assuredness to a state of transitional soul-searching but I am hanging in there and being the best that I can be.
I leave you with this gem because, although I was not ready for the picture to be taken, I feel very attractive: