My Dreams Did Not Come True (And That’s Okay With Me)

I have always been the epitome of the Type A personality; ruthless, driven and competitive. I spent the first eighteen years of my life knowing exactly where I was going and how I was going to get there. Although my goals and life plan were dynamic and constantly changing, I always had a life plan and felt a strong sense of urgency and direction.

In elementary school I had grand ambitions of being a teacher, then I was preparing for an exciting career in broadcast journalism (after spending an entire summer watching CNN in middle school), and after that I had big dreams of taking the world by storm as an actor. When I realized that making a living as an actor was an impracticality for me, I decided to pursue technical theatre until realizing that it was not my calling at the tender age of eighteen. I gave notice that I would be leaving the theatre completely after my production closed and, suddenly, I found myself with no life plan. Nothing was definite and I had no idea how I fit in to the world. I decided to take things day by day and let the pieces of my life fall together on their own.

Over the past year, I’ve been presented with so many fantastic opportunities that have developed into a variety of life changes. I never could have guessed a year ago that I would be doing what I’m doing today; things are coming together on their own and I am perfectly content to let them do so. The most important lesson that I have learned is that you can’t rush life: things will happen when they happen and the best thing that you can do is be prepared for anything and be ready to go with the flow.

Have I been able to accomplish every goal that I’ve ever set for myself? Not by a long shot. I have, however, been able to discern what battles are worth fighting and how best to continue to grow and develop myself as an individual and as a professional. I don’t think that I could ask for anything better!

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